October 23, 2009—just not feelin’ it right now…
30 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
I am sitting in bed eating pizza and I am freezing my ass off. OK, it’s only 60 something degrees, but I am in Texas.
I’ve got something on my mind that I need to write about. I don’t really fit in the bisexual community anymore. I am still on all the e-mail lists, but I don’t really enjoy the meetings. Maybe that’s a throwback to when I got tossed out of Bi-Net Houston because the facilitator was a bitch. I tried to express my feelings that it should be a support group instead of just a social group, but I always got pushed to the back of the bus. All I wanted to do was to make the bi group more of a “big tent”, not just for S/M enthusiasts or polys. I wanted the “vanilla bisexuals” to feel at home as well. Finally, with no support, I just gave up.
My main goal of attending Bi-Net was to meet more bisexual people. In the end, I met more bi people working in LGBT organizations, so that’s where I ended up focusing my energy. I got a lot of support from gays and lesbians about being bisexual.
Now I find myself more interested in (the very bi-friendly) Femme Mafia. I have identified as a femme since I first came out, but quickly pushed that into the closet. Now there is so much more femme visibility, so I can be myself.
Since I have been attending MCC Austin, I have been out as a femme and as a married bisexual disabled woman. I can help the church reach out to femmes, bis, straights, the differently abled, and anyone who feels differently.
